That WTF feeling when you want to express something, but can’t. I'm kicking it in Delhi, yet been typing & backspacing like crazy for half a day. So much feels, yet I can’t find the right words to perfectly express them. You know that feeling where everything's awesome, life is great & you're in 'The Zone'...but it would be so much better if that one person were there with you? Fuck, yaar...all yoga & meditation practices, down the drain! Bahahahahah! Enjoying it, though! There is beauty in the nuances of life, in the rawness of human emotion, be it happiness, sadness, joy, grief, fear, excitement...& I am thoroughly enjoying drowning in this chaos. O Govinda! Feeling Your separation I am considering a moment to be like twelve years or more. Tears are flowing from my eyes like torrents of rain, & I am feeling all vacant in the world in Your absence. - Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu (Sri Siksastakam Verse 7) – Love it when I read words which perfectly describe what I cannot describe. This song is one of my current obsessions. Such beautiful lyrics! It is always an ongoing battle between the head & the heart. The mind wants to control everything, down to the tiniest detail. It demands certainty...no surprises, gotdang it!
To some, the heart may seem like an impatient fool burning his tongue again & again every morning while sipping on his favourite hot chai: 'Idiot, if you would just wait for a while & let it cool!'...but such is the madness of the heart. It is devoid of logic & reason. It is a courageously impulsive bugger. It just knows, 'Okey, now this,' & *boom*. I used to be an over-planner. Everything had to be planned & prepared down to the most minute detail, ASAFP. But life has shown me that not everything is 'plan-able'. Sometimes you just have to jump first, think later. But more often than not, you can have a plan, but you have to remain flexible enough to adapt to any change which happens along the way. Well, it seems I've gone to the other end of the spectrum now - too relaxed, bahahahahah...I didn't really know who what where why when how, I just knew I wanted to be here in India. & here I am. Grateful for every experience, grateful for good friends, grateful for this life. Ah, mama India...every time I return, you teach me so much. Just to sit on your lap is a blessing. Sometimes, the things, places, & people we hold dearest to our hearts teach us the biggest lessons. Hope this post makes sense, I literally can't brain much at the moment.
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
Details
About Prabh LehriI am a yoga teacher based in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. I am passionate about yoga as a form of healing on the physical, emotional & mental level. I have been on a yoga journey for almost a decade and have been formally sharing my experience in the last 4 years. Archives
December 2017
Categories |