19/12/2017 One of The Greatest Gifts You Can Give Someone is Your Understanding of Yourself.Read NowA few days ago, this old blog post of mine popped up in my Facebook memories. Dear Soulmate, I believe in living in the present But I can't deny that I am also an accumulation of my past. Although sometimes I wish I could erase it It has taught me a lot. Sometimes I wince at the thought of the old-me I would never wish the her on anyone, much less you. I hope you understand that although the past may sometimes fuck me up It has made me the woman I am today. I have multiple battle wounds & scars Some put there by others, some self-inflicted. I know that these have nothing to do with you Yet more often than not the internal battle is a tough one. I hope you will forgive me when I sometimes lose these battles I know it is unfair to you, my beloved. Believe me when I say I am constantly working on them. Some days I am all sunshine & unicorn glitter Other days I am a dung beetle pushing rhinoceros poop around. More often than not I'm a tornado & I will need your quiet wisdom to calm the storm. I don't want my idea of you Neither do I want to assume you will remain the same person forever. I want the you when nobody's watching The you underneath the layers society has ruthlessly blanketed you with. I want the real you, at each & every moment Even if the real you changes over time. For we are both organic beings Constantly changing, transforming, evolving. I will love you so much If it weren't for your physical size, I'd potentially accidentally squeeze you to death. I can be extremely forgetful But you will always be in my heart & on my mind. I will randomly annoy you, either on purpose or not & make you wonder how the hell you got yourself into this in the first place. Despite all this I will not let you be less of the person you are. Although I love nothing more than To stare at you unblinking with eyes of adoration. I will call your bullshit when I see it. I will push & shove you if you need it. I refuse to settle for anything less than the best Even when it comes to you. Because if there is only one wish I could make for you It would be that you never stop growing. & I hope you will do the same for me too Even if that means we may one day part ways. (eeleeong.blogspot.my/2016/12/dear-soulmate.html) When there is love & clarity of being, everything flows smoothly. I emphasize on 'clarity of being' because many other things tend to hide under the guise of love - jealousy, sentimentality & possessiveness, to name a few. & if these are not present, without clarity of being, even too much love can be a problem! Loving from a space of clarity does not mean that it's all rainbows & stardust 24/7. I beg to differ. Love which runs deeply can also be ruthless like a sword. Out of compassion, the path of least resistance has to be taken, even though it may be extremely painful. An intimate relationship is a partnership in which both are committed to their own personal growth. Relationships are not bad. In my experience, they are the fastest way towards knowing who you are & what you are about. This year, I discovered this stunning poem by Rumi: Surely there is a window from heart to heart: they are not separate and far from each other. Two earthenware lamps are not joined, but their light is mingled as it moves. Oh, what profoundness in just four phrases! Truly, this is the master at work! Photo by Gaurav Shukla Two lamps, each perfectly capable of sustaining themselves, but as they come together, their individual lights blend effortlessly, in fact, it is impossible to stop them from merging, it is as natural as the sun's rays reach for the earth...yet! Regardless of how much they mingle, at the end of the day, they are still independent of each other.
& so it is with all relationships. But first, each flame needs to be shining brightly & strongly on its own. One of the greatest gifts you can give someone is your understanding of yourself.
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About Prabh LehriI am a yoga teacher based in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. I am passionate about yoga as a form of healing on the physical, emotional & mental level. I have been on a yoga journey for almost a decade and have been formally sharing my experience in the last 4 years. Archives
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